i am tired because of everything

huh.. i am really tired today. i want to sleep but it is too early. i must try to not sleep. i thought deeply today. so deeply. i realized what i want or not. my friendship is more important than him. actully i dont like him. he is just my friend. and i must forget E. he is still special for me. i dont kknow what i feel about him. i dont know anything :( but i could listen to bir anda yesterday. i think i am better. i have to be better. cheer up..